I know that MS symptoms are unpredictable. They come and go. They can be different from day to day, from hour to hour. I know this. I’ve discussed this with many people. I’ve written about this.
So why is it that when I have a symptom-free spell, I ask “Why am I feeling okay right now?”
I’ve been in good shape for the last two weeks – no cane, no brace. But naps as needed, Copaxone shots, and the fatigue meds are still a part of my daily routine.
But I can’t help wondering why I’m having a good spell. Is it that the fatigue medication really does take a month to kick in? Is it that the weather is cooler? Is it that I took a week off from the office and went to the Newark film festival instead? Is it that I worked from home for a week and got in a good mood? Is it that I’m listening to Rick Jarrow’s The Ultimate Anti-Career Guide and am planning to quit working in 5 years? Is it that I’m starting school in a week (Drexel University, on-line Masters program for Library and Information Science) and am looking for something to break the routine?
Or is it that darn short in the cord is not shorting out right now?
It's great to feel good - but I keep wondering when this is going to change.I can already feel my leg turning to stone and gravity begin to increase. It won't be long before I'm back to 'normal.'
And when that happens, I'll wonder "Why?'