Once I stopped working, I removed the unrealistic demands made upon me by myself and others. Although fatigue is still very bad, it doesn’t aggravate me as much. When I’m tired, I can simply stop and lay down. I don’t have to push through tough meetings or deadlines or put all my energy into dealing with insecure empire-building executives or other big-headed jerks. I no longer have to push myself to the edge, and pump myself full of drugs just to get through the work day only to crash so badly that I can’t eat dinner (deficit spoon spending, as mdmhvonpa calls it).
I am happier now that I’ve simply slowed my life down to the pace that my body can handle. Naturally. I have accepted that there are limitations to my energy. However, all the doctors I see still continue to push me toward some sort of drug because my acceptance of this reality is not normal. The latest drug recommendation was caffeine. Yes, it’s a drug, it’s an upper, and it’s legal.
ENOUGH! I have accepted that any drug, prescription or natural, steals tomorrow’s energy for today. It doesn’t make my life better. It doesn’t improve my enjoyment of life. It just makes my body a roller coaster ride of ups and downs. It pushes me to keep up with someone else’s standards. ENOUGH I say!
Am I the only one who sees this? Am I the only one who believes this?“Why am I venting about this?” you wonder.
Picture the drug store, the aisle where you pick up meds. The aisle was packed with a huge variety of ‘energy drinks.’ LOTS of energy drinks. Dozens of them. Power water, drinks to make you fly, drinks with monsters and lightning bolts. Drinks loaded with caffeine, sugar, guarna, vitamin B-12. Caffeine, nicotine, psuedophed, coke. There are well over 200 energy drinks on the market. TV advertisements are constantly pushing these drugs. Hot babes dance, hot dudes move, it’s a big rush, a big market.
Is this who we should aspire to be???We as a nation, as a culture, are pushing the need for speed. I think this is wrong. It’s a wrong way of life. It’s a wrong message. It is wrong for me.
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